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Self-Discovery is rather a remembering than any kind of doing. The cosmic frequencies of this cycle support memory as well as self remembrance. One could see memory as “the story” and remembrance as an ability to be centred in awareness, beyond questions and answers.
The answers to Who?-Why?-What? have over the course of human history formed an enormous memory bank of our human self as a species, a DNA code, a race or an ethnic, cultural or social appearance. That memory bank is available. It is actually vibrant as a potential throughout time, yet luckily we access only a tiny fraction of it in each life time. As individuals, we remember only what we need to remember to learn and grow in this life. As a collective, we do remember all our history in seed form. We’re all-ways connected in it.
In our individual nervous system, the electrical signals which form “the story of me” have reached to specific areas of the brain because the personal program that designs us runs an electrical charge. This produces exactly the kind of cognition in the now that we need to operate and it also produces the re-cognition when we see something we’ve seen before and therefore know from the past. Some of us have experiences of “deja vu” or find themselves in a scene they have dreamt before. How is something like that possible?
It is less miraculous than we may imagine. It has to do with the fact that the mind can process only ONE thing at a time. It cannot think two thoughts or feel two feelings at the same time. Try it out! Do not believe this. Try it …
This limitation of mind has created our sense of time, of past and future. ‘Mind is time’ in that it is aligning the various memories bit by bit into a line of time. Thus creating a story (of me). The only place and time where mind can not be is RIGHT NOW. In the middle of now, in the middle of the moment there is no-thing. That is scary to the mind. It exists through identifying objects. And yet, no-thing is the doorway into the remembrance of oneself as essence, as beingness, as conscious awareness aware of itself. Gautama Buddha has called it “Sammasati” (right remembrance)There are many ways to describe it and none can be fully accurate, because … there is no-thing, in awareness in the middle of this moment.
This cycle invites us to centre ourselves in the unknown and the unknowable. Hara oriented meditation greatly supports this. We can take steps in that direction by overcoming our habitual rights and wrongs. Overcoming doesn’t mean to lose adequate evaluation or sensible choices. It means not to glue to the meaning we’ve learned and project that into the future, away from now. Takes a step back from the interpretations society wants us to make, the speculation or confabulation about how we believe we and the world should be.
You want to find who you truly are, be fully here. It’s simply about the naked NOW – WOW!!!
HERE’S THE WHAT TO WATCH
Three days into this cycle, we’re invited and supported by the cosmic frequencies to observe our experiencing two shock points in one day. Those are unpleasant experiences for our psyche, which we probably all know: Being wrong and shame. They’re both biggies in how they appear to control us. The “being wrong’ part is run by the more male aspects inside us, the shame by the more female aspects. The male aspect of the psyche and the mind that wants reasons and explanations for everything in life will start looking for proof of being wrong, simply because there is a sense of feeling incomplete. From a deeper knowing that completion is what’s wanted or what would be natural, the mind concludes “I must be wrong” and looks for proof. The illusion is that once an explanation is found, we could get the whole thing under control. The urge to stay in control causes a lot of stress in the system and can expand into producing symptoms in order to prove that we are wrong.
That kind of gloomy gluing to reason weakens the receptive awareness of the more feminine parts in us. The energy collapses and begins to feel shame … for no reason. Shame is a crippling power and usually doesn’t even have a cause that can be named. It paralyses our life energy into hiding for fear of humiliation because of something we vaguely sense but don’t even know we have or haven’t done. Having said all this – and I’m pretty sure you will recognise it -what’s the good news?! Well, taking a look at the source of unworthiness, of feeling wrong or shame, it turns out that it all has to do with other people’s stories and opinions about you. None of that has arisen in any natural way from within. Here’s our chance to turn our back on the story and open to the silence within, in order to remember who we really are.
Admittedly the process of letting go of story may need some assistance through meditation, spiritual therapy or healing work. Some of those parts that run the sense of being wrong or shame have deep roots in conditioning, which trick us into believing that what we sense, see or feel is real. Yet the power of those mechanisms doesn’t make them true. With assistance or without assistance, it is our willingness to let the unknown reveal itself that is our best ally on the journey. Once we centre inside, what will be revealed is that which is always graceful, always aware and reliably connected to life in living and in dying. In my experience, Tibetan Pulsing has a capacity to profoundly assist that process.
Once we have a taste of reality and a taste of personal self, we may find to our surprise that sometimes we don’t seem to know which is which. We need to hang in there and hold still in the middle of this puzzle.
I remember hearing often that “you are Buddha nature and at the same time you are simply yourself as you are.” For years I would imagine that in some kind of essence way there was a Buddha nature, while I could not comprehend that “me as I am would sync with that?” Mind cannot grasp this. It forever beholds cause and effect to be reality. Tibetan Buddhism calls that the ‘fundamental ignorance’ and defines it as the root of all problems. Mind cannot do it. It will always find shortcomings and flaws that won’t fit its concept of Buddha nature and therefore believe one is wrong as a human being. Just right now, drop a little deeper and feel how your heart takes this statement that you are Buddha nature and you are simply yourself the way you are. The heart doesn’t have a problem with that. A sense of deeper expansion opens. A dropping deeper to the real silent centre where nothing moves this way or that. You’re here, present, available. Able to respond to the moment like a beginner in this instant, with the innocence of a child and yet fully equipped with the knowledge of an adult.
All the muddle around ‘subjective versus objective truth’ falls into silence in our being.
(the frequency constellation happened before on 5th May)
A real shower of grace is possible today, blessing the aspect in us that is connected to our sense of objective truth. It upholds the laws of objective truth and can be strongly opinionated in opposition to certain things, in order to maintain a balance in life for oneself and others. In itself, it is a balanced force’ It is balanced between the feminine and masculine qualities of compassion and action. It has to do with thinking in terms of the heart and expressing the heart, while protecting the environment from any evil by not allowing ignorance. Those heartful qualities flower as long as we are fuelling them by being natural and ordinary. In becoming extraordinary, we will lose both the balance and the sense of objective truth. This then becomes distorted into an ignorance towards matters of the heart and necessary action in the environment. The entering and balancing forces are the yang and the yin, the male and female energies inside of us. When those flow in harmony and find inner peace, there will be no fighting among human beings and we may express our potential as Love and compassion for all beings.
please read 8 May, the energies repeat today, with an aspect of the BLESSING DAYS
The physical organ benefiting from transformation in this cycle: Pons